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I broke down and cried again today. I just miss my siblings so much. I don’t know what to say or do to get through to my parents. They are so set in their ways and don’t believe they have done anything wrong. I know the whole parenting thing is well you’re the child and I know what’s best because I was in your place once. The only problem is that my parents have not learned a single thing from their mistakes and certainly have not grown from them and continue to make the same mistakes at their adult age. How can you tell me what to do as if you have overcome those hardships when you haven’t? I have always been too mature for my age. To the point where it was my mom being loud and obnoxious at the grocery store and I had to tell her to behave herself not the other way around. My mother has done more wrong, made more mistakes and committed more sins than any person I know but somehow she feels like need to degrade me. Trying to be a parent and try is the key word here is one thing such as attempting to tell me right from wrong that’s what every parent does. But what really made me break was the verbal and emotional abuse that I was put through. Even as a teenage girl I didn’t experience half of the name calling or shit talking that I went through because of my own family. I will NEVER talk to my children that way. EVER. I don’t even talk to people that way that have done me wrong that I hate let alone to say the words that they have to my own daughter. My little girl should arrive in approximately three weeks and I am so excited. I know focusing on my own family won’t fill the void I feel from being banned from seeing my two youngest siblings but hopefully it will help me finally be happy again. Truly happy. I can’t wait to meet her.
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